Fading memories

4.14PM

I have not been blogging much cos most of the time I’m either sleeping or out with my friends or at work. This whole week passed by with a blink of an eye, nothing much happened except for the fact that I’m still fuggin sick and nowhere near recovering due to my hectic albeit somewhat NOT really fulfilling lifestyle. The problem about me is that I keep procrastinating, there’s always tomorrow and when tomorrow comes there’s always the day after. Summerising what I did over the past few days:

Tuesday evening: Met AJ for dinner, ate gelato, watched Over Her Dead Body and headed home, nothing very exciting.

Wednesday: Went to the Playground and had Sushi Tei for dinner with the girls, headed back to KKN’s place for some tete-a-tete. Met TL for a late hangout session as Zhan Da Ge had left her home alone and went to some Lup Sup bar with his friends.

Thursday: Really sick but still trudged to work as my in tray was piling up sky high. Headed home straight, double dosed on my medication and conked out all the way from 6pm-7.30am the next day.

Friday: Awoke refreshed with adrenalin pumping and cleared up my in tray. Smses kept flooding my phone thru the whole day, where to go tonight and stuff. Ended up club hopping the whole night, machiam Mamasan mut pao tai. First stop, Balaclava with AC and the usual bunch of guys, so sian cos I was the only chick that night. Bumped into ECP and Whorger at another table and Es and his friends at yet another table so ended up paoing tai machiam Mamasan. M was there too, clinging on to yet ANOTHER man... Wad a slut! There was this farnie girl there named Veron (I use her name her cos I dunno her and I wan peeps who hang out at Bala to know who she is). She goes there alone hoping to hook up with some man but always ends up going home alone and empty handed. And guess what, she has a crush on our AC. Everytime she heads over to our table, the guys all siam her like nobody’s business. Yesterday was a classic example: I stepped out for a smoke with Es and when I came in, I saw the rest of the guys at my table all squeezed in one corner with S sitting alone. Saw Veron standing quite near behind him so I went over and slung my arm around his shoulder. He jumped out of his skin, thinking I was Veron and that look on his face was priceless! Headed over to AC next, clung onto his arm and watched her stare daggers at me while the rest of the guys chuckled on. After a while, she took a hint and left. I mean what the hell is wrong with you girl, isn’t it obvious that they all can’t stand the sight of you, the minute you come they all scatter like ants. I know you’re fat and ugly but at least if you had a personality that shines through, people wouldn’t avoid you like the plague. *rolls eyes* Wadever...I dunno you and I dun wanna know you either. I saved my boys last night and have now incurred the wrath of a total stranger...

From Balaclava, headed down to some dingy KTV pub in Amoy Street where I stayed for a while and then hightailed it. Went to Dragonfly to meet TL, Zhan Da Ge and their friends. Gulped some more champagne and went to hunt for friends. Found TPL half drunk standing alone and dragged him out for a smoke. While smoking, I kept watching him as he looked like he was gonna fall flat on his face anytime but he still kept gulping down his drinks. That guy is one alcoholic, I wonder how his gf can stand it? Next, I found I, whom I have not seen in 2 years, my ex bf’s sis’s ex... Fwah! Went out for smoke again. Found J whom I met at Zouk a couple of weeks ago at the smoking area. J’s my sec sch classmate and he mentioned that he was with the rest of the bunch. I used to have a crush on one of this guys from their group, JO but JO never even took a second look at me during sch days. J hijacked me from I and took me over to the table. You should have seen JO’s eyes pop when he realised who I was. Time to turn the tables like what I did with the rest of the sec sch bastards who wouldn’t even give me a second look in the past. Basked in the attention for a while, got bored and went to Movida to find Es. Got even more bored and went home at like 430am. Wondering if I hooked up with any men? Nope, I wasn’t in the mood last night. Some fish jumped into the boat themselves but I tossed them back into the water... just not interested, dunno why...

Back to today...

It’s 4.48PM already and I have to meet AJ at 6pm... We’re heading down to Bugis for dinner and I hope I dun bump into someone. The wounds are healing rapidly, as long as he doesn’t call me or msg me or whatsoever, I’ll be fine... Oh ya, and TL doesn’t like her... Wahahahaha! I really really have to run now...

4.50PM

Emotional rollercoaster

10.21AM

Wondering what’s I’m doing at home? I’m sick la, but going into the office at midday to clear up my shit...

Exerpts from over the past few days:

Saturday: Met AJ for dinner and Ironman in the evening and vegged out till about 4am at night before heading home... Was hacking away by that time but I still shoved fries down my throat. Nothing fanciful happened, when you get old, weekends are kinda boring...

Sunday: Met AJ (again!) for KTV...despite the fact that I felt like I had a frog in my throat, I took the bull by the horns and rocked away to Wubai, Power Station  and Shin...I think that did it and by the end of the 4 hours, I sounded like an old man with bronchitis. AJ left to meet his friends at Bugis and I headed to Ngee Ann City to meet Prudy for dinner. She was green in the face and didn’t look to good either. Went shopping after that and blew a small hole in my pocket. Was happy, am always happy after shopping then she dropped a bomb with just one small sentence ‘Eh, a red AER just drove past...’ Knn lor, see already no need to tell me wad... So I got upset and decided to pig out so dragged her, Uncle Loland and J to Swensens for ice cream. By that time it was already like 1030 and any food that is consumed after like 8pm goes straight to the waist. Fug la, I needed something to get my mood up again. Got home around 1am and spent the rest of the night chatting to Zhan Da Ge on MSN and dug out some juicy news...

Monday: Sick! The price to pay for the KTV, fries and ice cream over the weekend. Blardy sick! I couldn’t talk but managed to drag myself to the doctor and get pills. Spent the whole day feeling sorry for myself and whining and in the process, pissed AJ off. I’m sorry but you should know what its like, once bitten twice shy, its not that I dun appreciate but I won’t let myself walk down that same road again. Chatted with TL almost the whole day and made plans for Wed, dinner @ Kushinbo with her and Zhan Da Ge and another friend. Will drag them to meet A for drinks at Bala after dinner. She’s in Shitney btw... *cackles*

Today: Groggy pills made me oversleep so I took half a day off to rest which brings us now to the current moment. Supposed to have lunch with AJ but then it started pouring suddenly and I just wanted to nua at home until 12 before I start dressing up and head to work. Dunno how much shit I have to clear from the past 4 days but I reckon that I’ll finish up at 5 pm sharp as I really have no mood to work today. In desperate need of some retail therapy so I shall go to Alvin’s after work to see if I can pick up anything new. Anyway, AJ’s gonna visit his momma in the hospital until about 6 plus before he comes to pick me so it gives me a little free time to shop. I just can’t shop with a man around, very distracting to see their ‘I’m bored are you done yet face’ .

*I don’t love you, like I did yesterday... Wad are you thinking? She’s married lor and I also kinda never expected it to be her... You left her for me? Gawd... and you think that something will come out of it? That she’s gonna divorce her husband and marry you? Dream on darling...At the end of the day you’re gonna turn back and look at what you’ve missed out on and by that time, it’s too late. This ship has sailed and it ain’t coming back... Grow up la, how old already...

So I paint this picture of you and me

Floating together in the sea

Flying high in the air

Dwelling deep in the earth

Burning in passion within the fire in us

As I only dare to say

All illusions are derived from reality

To let the fusion of both

Strive to be the truth

The truth, that true love lives

Never fades and never dies

Yet the knowledge lingers within our heart and soul

Nowhere to hide them nor beseech then nor run away

Let’s accept and go far far away

In the clouds of seventh heaven

Where we shall truly find a sanctuary

That only heaven can provide

Leave it to providence then

And providence shall make sense

Ever the sense of true love

Now and forever

Am I still in denial? Am I willing to move out of my confort zone and strive for better things? Do I still love you? Does it really matter? Am I just making use of you? Do I really want you back in my life? Am I really a player? Is this all just a facade? Should I conform? Should I stop asking myself the same damn questions everyday and just take what comes along?

I think I still haven’t figured out what I want. I need more time.

10.58AM

Cynical poet.

12.31PM

Looking out to the sea

Silhouttes of yesterday play so vividly

Like the waves rolling onto one another

In my mind’s eye I see

All of the memories gone beyond like our dreams

They rise, they fall

What else is there?

Only the whispers of the seashells into the air

For across the horizon

The pain of loving and losing

Is just an avalanche of emotion

Yet the reality subsides

And the illusion lives all in one motion

Time flies, so they say

Time heals, they say again

The wisdom of it all

Is to let go and let you fly

Fly as high as you want

Like the eagles or the doves

In itself lies the beauty of seeing you fly

Yet the nest where you belong

Will be nurtured and kept alive

My heart, that is where you shall dwell

In the finale of freedom

In the wonderous moment of being one

The scarcity of love

And that, is glorious

Where I left off on Thursday...

After countless missed calls to AJ, the pig was still snoring away in Lala Land. Got fed up of waiting for him to awake from his piglike slumber as my stomach was growling to be fed. Went to meet K instead for dinner, pool and ice cream. I kinda lost my touch at pool and lost 3 rounds to him. That, for someone who used to play in competitions was rather jia lat. Maybe its cos both of us were too engrossed in talking and pool became secondary. Maybe cos I’m someone who is rather competitive and since its something to pass our time, I didn’t really bother to aim and shoot well. AJ finally woke up at God knows what time and got kinda cheesed off that I went out with someone else. My fault meh? U’re the one that didn’t pick up so dun blame me, besides he’s anti social so I decided against asking him to join me and K. Craved ice cream at 1030pm so we headed to Haagen Daaz in HV. 2 double scoops cost us 28 bucks...nightlight robbery lor. I’m not a miser and do appreciate the finer things in life but that was rather extravagant. The scoops were smaller too. K said we should have just bought a tub from Cold Storage and find some place to eat. Headed home around 1 am and contemplated taking urgent leave the next day as I was frigging lazy and looking forward to a loooong weekend.

Friday started off on a really bad note. Apparently, the family saga became from bad to worse and the mastermind behind it all was actually someone whom was really close to me. I got really upset when Momma mentioned it. I refused to believe as Momma can sometimes be very drama mama. It’s like one of those HK drama serials and I didn’t know something like this can happen in real life and even so, not in my family. So they say, blood is thicker then water, I beg to differ. What’s wrong with you people? Do you mean whatever so called happy family gatherings throughout the past years have only been a facade? It’s disappointing to know that the people closest to you have actually been your worst enemies. Fuggin backstabbers! I didn’t wanna get embroiled into the whole mess but somehow I got sucked into it unwittingly. Trust is the main issue here. Hearing the things they said made me look at them in a totally different light. My life is how I choose to live it and nobody has the frigging right to judge. You keep pointing fingers at other people and always think your kids are the best. But are they really? They might be in your eyes but have you also heard the things that have been said about them. This will NOT carry on to the next generation, you settle your scores and leave us alone. Nbz... no mood to work already and was stoning until...

Apologise ringtone...One message recieved, was thinking, prob AJ, Es, K or A, read message and went wide-eyed. BM: How are you? Sorry that I went MIA since about 2 weeks. Anyway, me now doing my reservist. Hope you’re fine...

*mixed feelings & jumbled thoughts*

WAD THE FUG??? U FUGGING PULL A DISAPPEARING ACT ON ME AND JUST WHEN I’M READY TO MOVE ON YOU FUGGIN MESSAGE ME AGAIN??? WAD THE FUG ARE YOU TRYING TO PULL YOU MARDERFUGGER???

YOU’RE FINALLY BACK, DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I’VE MISSED YOU? DO YOU KNOW THAT I’VE BEEN WAITING FOR YOU TO CALL? YOU FINALLY REALISED THAT I MEAN MORE TO YOU THAT YOU THOUGHT I DID?

My head took over so I forwarded message to some people and guess what they reply was? Something I knew deep down at the bottom of my heart but refused to admit. He’s bored and in camp and lonely and looking for someone to spend time with after he books out cos Ms XX got sick of him and decided to ditch him or whatever.. Think I wad, spare tyre is it? Sorry lor, remember I told you before, when you walk away and turn back, I’m NOT gonna be there anymore... Too late, too bad, so sad, you marderfugging piece of shit!

Anger, part 2 of the healing process... I’m making good progress....still I didn’t have much of a mood to work, just wanted to go home and scream...

Hung out at ECP after work and just decided to veg out. Clubbing? Reckon not as I didn’t have the mood and probably wouldn’t enjoy myself. A was at Zouk  and asked me if I wanted to come with but I really didn’t wanna see any men last night cos I’d probably treat them like BM and take it out on them and I DO NOT want to be labelled crazy bitch although I know I am one. A’s another player, saw through him after the back and forth messages from the past couple of days so I decided to leave it be. I’ve had enough!

JS came to pick me up from ECP all the way from Jurong West just to send me back. Hidden agenda? He said no, just missed me and wanted to see me. Huh? I dun get it, dun people do things without an ulterior motive. Where got so good one? All the way from West drive to East, pick me up and drive back to the West. He said that I am someone who makes simple things seem complicated. The more complicated you think it is, the more complicated it will get. I know it myself, I think too much. But maybe it’s the people I hang out with and the things I’ve seen that made me realise that life is really not so simple afterall. As much as I wanted to believe him, I still think he has an ulterior motive...

It’s 1.22PM and I have 3.5hrs to do my nails, clean my room and sleep. Meeting AJ for a movie later on and supposed to wake him up again! Man, that guy really can SLEEP! If he choot pattern again, I’m gonna meet someone else but I dun think he dares already after that night...

Putzy msged me last night and he was at DF again, seems like when I stopped going to DF, he has been going there. Asked him if he was ok this morning and he couldn’t even remember msging me. He’s still the same, jiu gui, won’t change la... like me, I won’t quit smoking....

Okies, time to go now, if not I won’t have anymore time left to sleep...

1.27PM

*Zooooookkkkk*

5PM

I just blardy woke up to countless wanna go out messages and missed calls. Couldn’t be bothered to reply cos I just wanna nua nua nua today. Spent last night getting wild at Zouk and saw a whole new world that I realised that I had missed out on. All thanks to Prudy that I was introduced to this world and, I kinda like it. What have I been missing all this years? Now I know why Zouk is SG’s hottest hotspot and while many other places come and go, Zouk has held its ground. It was claustrophobically packed last night so I ended up most of the time in the smoking area at members area drinking and chain smoking with them. Met a couple of cuties and they reboosted my ego a little. J was hot, and after a while did I realise why he looked so darn familiar. He was Cleo’s 2007 Most Eligible Bachalor! A was not too bad, cute in a boyish sort of way and very glibbed tongued. B was gosh darn cute and he reminded me of a polar bear... a little young though and not really very experienced. And no, I didn’t go home with any of them.

AJ’s frigging still sleeping lor... and it’s 5 plus already. Man, that guy really can sleep! Should I be nice and let him sleep and just go to Sentosa with B or should I just call him and wake him up? Sun’s gng down already so I guess I won’t be getting much of a tan anyway. Prob head to Cafe Del Mar and chill out if AJ doesn’t wake up by 6. But then again I promised to spend time with him today... Aye... decisions, decisions...I hate making them!

It so feels like Sunday today but it’s only Thurs and I have to frigging work tomorrow... Sometimes I just feel like taking the easy way out and just choose that option which will allow me to have a good life without working but is that what I really want? Nope, reckon not.

* I think he’s fallen in love with someone else already judging by the comments on his Friendster and also by the changes in his MSN nickname. Sigh... that was really quick! Prudy’s right, as much as I wanted to deny that fact, I guess I never meant anything to him in the first place afterall...

Damn tu lan now... think I shall be mean and go dig AJ up.

5.17PM

MFEO...

*This is getting even worse... 3 entries in 1... I been going out too much...

PANIC ATTACK

9.03AM on 28^th Apr

It's already Monday and J still has not approved Pussycat and KKN's leave. Damnit, does it mean that this Aussie trip is going to the dogs? I really really really need this break lor. If I dun leave the country soon I'm gonna kee siao again. Even so, the timeline is like really short. If I fly off on Wed means that I only have 1 day to pack and 1 day to organise my shit at work. *breathes hard*

*calms self down and thinks about other stuff*

This week was kinda movie week. Saw The Hottie and The Nottie last night with AJ (he finally woke up at 3pm after some prodding). Went to eat Korean food first at JP and nua there until about 8 plus when we headed over to Westmall for the movie as JP wasn't showing. Stuffed face with hot fudge sundae before heading into the cinema. At this rate I'm going, I'm gonna grow fat again... TMD!!! AJ say he like, got tummy to lie, gonna feed me fat fat so nicer to hug like a teddy bear...KNN lor...

*reality hits*

Why am I blogging about mundane stuff like my day to day events??? Have I been reduced to one of those people who blog because they have nothing better to do??? ARRRRRRRRGGGGHHHHH!!!!! Cannot, cannot, cannot! I am not like that cos I hate people like that and if I become like that does it mean I'll end up hating myself?

Ok, got something! I know someone who does not read my blog so I'll just bitch about him here. He's someone who fascinates me not in a good way but not in a bad way either. He's a free spirit, nua as hell and bo chup as can be. Nothing can tie him down and nothing will ever make him worry. He lives life without a plan and without an agenda and takes into stride whatever comes along. Makes the best out of things and is happy as can be. Do people like this exist in this dog eat dog world? I'm curious to find out what's going on in that warped mind of his? Do free spirits really still do exist and how do they survive in society nowadays? Maybe its the material things in life that we want that cause us to be so driven and competitive. Take away all this and what do we have left? Life in the 1800s where all these material stuff did not exist and probably wasn't even invented. Being the always plan ahead person that I am I asked him. What if you didn't have money, no family and nothing 50 years down the road, what would you be doing and how would you survive? His answer, dunno, when the time comes then decide lor... Huh? WTF lor? I mean you not scared izzit? You're probably gonna end up like those old men who wander around aimlessly everyday, eat leftovers from the hawker centre and sleep at void decks. U mean you can be happy like that? I'm really puzzled. He asked him a question and his answer freaked me out. I can't answer you something that has not happened yet cos I dunno how I would react when the time comes... *face white* Sounds familiar? It's something that BM used to say to me and it irritates the shit out of me. Now, its like going from a frying pan straight into a big black kwali. Alarm bells went off in my head. Free spirited, no responsibilites, non confrontational, never finishing things they started... the similarities were all there and it was flashing out at me like a big STOP sign. We're just too different, on totally opposite ends of a spectrum. The twain shall never meet...

I ish the sibei sian now cos I just had a really bad lunch and my tummy is doing somersaults. I just wanna go home, shower and cry myself to sleep. Somebody mentioned that I have too much angst in me and I should just lighten up and take things easy. Try as I might, I just can't. Guess it's just in my character. I strive for perfection and when perfection is not what I get, I get tu lan and start blaming myself and also blaming the cause that made my perfect life imperfect. You were the imperfection in my life that I tried to perfect but I guess I thought too highly of myself and that you would change for me.

Almost Over You - Sheena Easton

I saw an old friend of ours today
she asked about you
I didn't quite know what to say
heard you've been making the rounds
'round here
while i've been trying to make tears disappear......

Now i'm almost over you
i've almost shook these blues
so when you come back around
after painting the town, you'll see
i'm almost over you........

You're such a sly one with your cold, cold heart
maybe leaving came easy
but it tore me apart
time heals all wounds, they say
and I should know
'cause it seems like forever
but i'm letting you go.....

Now i'm almost over you
i've almost shook these blues
so when you come back around
after painting the town, you'll see
i'm almost over you.....

I can forgive you and soon i'll forget
all those shattered dreams
although you've left me with nothing to show
full of misery....

Now i'm almost over you
i've almost shook these blues
so when you come back around
after painting the town, you'll see
i'm almost over you.......

Somebody who is rather close to me is starting to get on my nerves recently. I sometimes feel like slapping her and asking her to wake up her blardy idea. She just doesn't give up until she hears the things she wants to hear and will not accept any explaination whatsoever. Everything MUST have a valid reason and the reason MUST make sense to her even though it does not make sense to the other. I think I now know why her face is so sour everyday and why she is alone until now. If you thought that I was hard to live with, she is even harder. Complaints come non stop if things do not go her way and she expects you to be there for her even though you have something else to do. She can do things to others but others cannot do the same to her if not she will shoot off her mouth and give you hell. I dun like arguing with my friends so I shut up most of the time when she shoots off her mouth. He treats you like shit does not mean you do the same to your friends. Another one of us has come to the terms that she is like that and has accepted it. I just can't cos I dun wanna see her walk down the rest of the road in life like that, lonely and friendless. I pity her and feel sorry for her and I'm trying to accept her for what she is but from what I foresee, her end is not going to be a very good one. Sometimes I wanna smack the shit out of her and ram her head against the wall but when she starts crying and tells me how much it hurts inside, I feel heartache and crumble and just sayang her. Call me a softie but I'd take a bullet for a friend anyday. I know how it feels like to be abandoned but at least I know what to do what is right and move on. Maybe I love myself too much.

Half an hour to knock off... meeting E for dinner, I hope he's not late...

4.35PM

Mood Swings

1.44PM on 29^th Apr

Some things are just best left alone but the curiousity in us humans makes us wanna know what lies behind those walls so we just korek and korek until the truth lies bear in front of us. I had my truth like a slap in the face yesterday night and I cried myself to sleep again. It kinda ruined my otherwise rather good mood. Had a nice dinner, watched a movie with Es, went home, logged on and saw something that I didn't wanna see. I knew it deep inside my heart all along, I knew it from the start and I just had to have the truth slap me straight in the face before I believed that it was all true. So tonight, I'm just gonna stop avoiding whatever it is I'm avoiding and head down to Bugis. If I see, I see lor... what to do? I can't keep running away, just have to face up to the truth one day. Meeting AJ again tonight, just need someone to sayang me and he does it really well. :)

* Men, can't live with em, can't live without em!

For all those men who say, Why buy a cow when you can get milk for free. Here's an update for you: Today, 80% of women are against marriage, WHY? Because women realize it's not worth buying an entire pig just to get a little sausage. *nyuk nyuk nyuk* Why do you think I'm still single?

Men are like....

1. Men are like ...Laxatives ........ They irritate the crap out of you.

2. Men are like. Bananas ....... The older they get, the less firm they are.

3. Men are like ...... Weather. Nothing can be done to change them.

4. Men are like ....... Blenders You need One, but you're not quite sure why.

5. Men are like ..... Chocolate Bars.... Sweet, smooth, & they usually head right for your hips.

6. Men are like .... Commercials ....... You can't believe a word they say.

7. Men are like Department Stores..... Their clothes are always 1/2 off.

8. Men are like ......Government Bonds .... They take soooooooo long to mature.

9. Men are like .... .Mascara . They usually run at the first sign of emotion.

10. Men are like .Popcorn ..... They satisfy you, but only for a little while.

11. Men are like Snowstorms .... You never know when they're coming, how many inches you'll get or how long it will last.

12. Men are like .........Lava Lamps....Fun to look at, but not very bright.

13. Men are like Parking Spots.......... All the good ones are taken, the rest are handicapped.

ROMANCE MATHEMATICS

 
Smart man + smart woman = romance
Smart man + dumb woman = affair
Dumb man + smart woman = marriage
Dumb man + dumb woman = pregnancy
 
 
OFFICE ARITHMETIC
Smart boss + smart employee = profit
Smart boss + dumb employee = production
Dumb boss + smart employee = promotion
Dumb boss + dumb employee = overtime
 
SHOPPING MATH
A man will pay $2 for a $1 item he needs.
A woman will pay $1 for a $2 item that she doesn't need.
 
GENERAL EQUATIONS & STATISTICS
A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.
A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.
A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.
A successful woman is one who can find such a man.
 
HAPPINESS
To be happy with a man, you must understand him a lot and love him a little.
To be happy with a woman, you must love her a lot and not try to understand her at all.
 
LONGEVITY
Married men live longer than single men do, but married men are a lot more willing to die.
 
PROPENSITY TO CHANGE
A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn't.
A man marries a woman expecting that she won't change, and she does.
 
DISCUSSION TECHNIQUE
A woman has the last word in any argument.
Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.
 
HOW TO STOP PEOPLE FROM BUGGING YOU ABOUT GETTING MARRIED
Old aunts used to come up to me at weddings, poking me in the ribs and cackling, telling me, "You're next." They stopped after I started doing the same thing to them at funerals.

2PM

10.56AM on 30 Apr

Thought about this when I was taking my daily morning dump in the toilet earlier on...

Somebody once said to be that everything is predestined but certain things you do in life will alter your fate and you will end up walking down a totally different path that God had planned out for you. Each time he sends down 2 souls into this world, they are linked by an unseen red thread. But God is not kind and does not hand things to you on a silver platter. Countless pairs have been sent down and the red threads somehow become intertwined with each other, so much so that some of them have have knotted with other threads. It's up to each individual to unknot the knots and find his/her other half and vice versa. Some knots are so complicated that sometimes they just give up and take the pair that is nearest to the knot, that's how divorce and affairs come about. Ah, got work to do... peak season coming so I guess you gonna see less blog entries already... entries getting shorter too... continure when I’m home...

11AM

5.52PM

Ok where was I?

Yes, so I am still single cos I wanna untie the right knots and find my partner, the right one, the one God sent down with me. Not someone who belongs to someone else. So guess patience is the key. Sometimes it gets you down when you see all your friends getting married and having kids. Some live happily ever after, some get divorced after a year of marriage when they realise that they married for the wrong reasons and some are just settling for second best and looking for all the excitement outside. It seems like the easy way out but as wild as I am, I still have a rather traditional view towards marriage. No more scandals, no more affairs, my husband has to be the only man I sleep with every night. The one I look forward to seeing at the end of a long hard day and I have to be his. Sounds impossible in this complicated world of ours but I have seen people who are like that and it’s the only thing that keeps my hopes up...

*Fug, my boss found out I was blogging in the office, better stop, later tio pok... so, less entries I guess?

I have to go now cos I’m working on a short timeline and have to do my nails and sleep before I meet up with Uncle Loland and Prudy for dinner...

Ta!

6.01PM